A quick update to say thank you for the notes, texts, messages and kind gestures you have sent our way. We are grateful for the kindness extended to our family. I will eventually get around to responding to them all but for now this update before I fall asleep again! I have slept most of the past 11 days and my body is healing slower than I would like especially my right arm and hand. My left hand and face definitely look like they’ve been through an ordeal but it is my right arm that is the source of pain and the focus of Lawson’s concern and vigilant care. So, here’s what’s been going on.
It has been an extremely painful week and a half since the flash fire that burned me. It is absolutely the last thing we needed as the deadline for leaving for Australia nears. In spite of everything, I am so incredibly thankful. I could need plastic surgery. I could have lost my eye sight. And, the very worst…it could have been Eve instead of me. Let me back up a bit. I did something I should not have done. I was multitasking and distracted! I sprayed ScotchGuard in a poorly ventilated space – the bathtub. I usually have the door to our outdoor shower open for ventilation or spray things outside but for some reason I forgot on this occasion. I later went to clean that space so Eve could wash the dogs there. I almost asked her to do it. I almost exclusively use organic cleaning products so just forgot what I was dealing with. Never again! The fire happened so fast. All I truly remember is Eve’s terrifying screams and pain on my face and arms like I have never felt before. It was the scariest thing I have ever experienced! After that it is all a bit fuzzy. I was in shock and frightened. It frightened us all. Lawson raced me to get medical attention and well….it’s hard to remember past that. The thing I know though from the years where my parents were sick and my children were younger and I was constantly on the road in between my parents home and ours, juggling time with my children and time with my parents, is that when we have major life transitions, or trauma’s going on it is easy to not think straight. Accidents are far more likely to happen during times like these. While we work hard to practice mindfulness in our life, sometimes life can get overwhelming. This has been one of those times.
My beloved Lawson is the one to whom I owe my greatest thanks. He has been my nurse, lovingly changing my dressing, which I have to say would have me passing out if I had to do it myself, several times a day, bathing me and shouldering not only his load of the work toward this Aussie adventure but mine as well! One of the qualities I was looking for in a mate all those years ago was someone who I felt would be true. I think it is one of the most important traits anyone can possess. I also think it is incredibly rare. I pray everyday that our girls future husbands will have this quality! I believe they will because they will know what to look for because of their dad, just as I did thanks to my sweet papa! When there has been an accident and you are in pain, when the long term impact of an accident is unknown, when you face the possibility of being disfigured and you wonder how your mate will respond, being married to someone who is true is the most extraordinary of gifts! My Lawson is so true! I never, ever, ever take this for granted! A true soul is so hard to find but worth the time and wait it takes to find them! As e.e. cummings said…
Indeed you are all those things Lawson!
Now, back into hibernation to continue to heal! Loving thoughts to you all! Thanks for taking the time to read our blog and again, for your thoughts and prayers!